no one will emerge victorious out of this whole ghastly ordeal.

maybe ordeal is too weak a word. disaster? massacre?

& i think its beyond crazy how this Israel can still declare tougher war on Hamas.

Hamas should just burn & die too.

do you see victory in death?

to ask, 'why can't they just shake hand, sign treaty & be happy?' would be too much to ask for

right? but one can hope.

lets pray.

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yesterday was a very FUBAR day.

the only silver lining was me meeting ferhan for a bit. for less than like 10 minutes.

my company law is like beyond screwed.

& cause i handed up late (by like less than a minute. to God i swear) i got 5 marks minus off.

which means i dropped a grade.

pfft.. & i skipped leadership yesterday cause i dont feel like going.

yeah. & i was trying to clear out my annual leave which tp gives its student.

its a new year & i wanted to do something i never tried before like inhaling helium gas from ' i love tp' balloons. which i did. it has a funny taste to it. & i look funny in the video so im not gonna post it up. i think i inhale it too fast that i got headache soon after. i pass the rest of the gas to nas who sounded funny as hell in his donald duck voice.

shaun sham & i went to coffeebean to sit down & talk.

before i made my way to ferhan's house with his pure vanilla drink in my hand.

& i saw him in his uniform! HAHAHA. =))

when i got there, abah called saying nyanyi nazak at sembawang.

& when i got there, the atmosphere was very somber. i just can't say it, you know.

im going to go off now.

& then to the hospital.