i sent the awesome cute devilish ZulB to school just now.

& i've got to be the only person in the family who calls him zulb. 

which he will reply with "Yes kakak ain b?!!"

seeing him so happy to go to school makes me realised how fast he grows.

how fast we all grow up. what do we grow up for?

what will we be? where will we go?

cause these children will never ever know.

because they have been robbed off their lives.

because they are the victims of the arrogance of the grown up.

these are civilians. the rising death toll is atrocious.

this is inhuman. what does it matter if you're a jew, a gypsy, a christian, a muslim?

we all want to live. & who gives you the right to steal their life away from them. 

why are we humans playing God?

this is wretched. is there no better alternative than a bloodbath?

there are more pictures like these out there. mass burial, father carrying her wounded daughter, a child buried among the rubbles, a man with burned skin. & i cried looking at them.

its so painful and sad.

here we are living a life of luxury and we have no bloody idea what existed at the other end of the world. these people's deaths are in vain. nothing's gonna change. just another nameless victim on the street.

& for fuck's sake, if not for your God, 

stop it already. you're fucking going on a killing spree!

i take comfort in the knowledge that these children & the other victims out there doesn't have to face anymore violence from any one any more. i mean now that they're gone, their misery ends. & that God will place these little souls in heaven. give them peace that they never have.

& thank you.

i don't think much of God everyday.

but i do when i look at these nameless victims. 

 

& i love Nevertheless cause even though they're a christian punk band, their songs

are damn cool. cause the 'you' in the lyrics could only refer to God. & yes, He is still people's hope.

& i need to change how i live my life.

like maybe start caring if the food i eat is actually halal.

... ... ... 

goodnight. 

it has been traumatising for me.

& i hope i can sleep without seeing dead children with blood pouring out of their wounds