no, i have no idea what "Guapo" is supposed to stand for.
i got that off perezhilton when li ying assured me to go there & say i'll love it.

& yes, i love it.
cause Zachary Quinto is there.
THERE! staring me straight in the face.

ohgod, im obssessed.
i now belonged in one of those fangirls group who just dies at the mere mention of the celebrity crush name.

ENOUGH!
the thing is, it's 1.26 & i can't sleep.
& its irritating cause it's perfectly alright if i can't sleep but have enough willpower & concentration in me to do some assignment. but noooo... i can't do anything.

it must be the stress. i'm going to commit suicide tmr.
so many things to do. so many problems thrown in my face.

how to go to sleep when moments before i go to sleep im still thinking to myself, serve WOS this thursday, file MOS & MOA this wednesday, finish up crim pro tmr, find furniture for my law firm later, do mloct report, read mloct project 2, remember saturday got SIP briefing.

& on top of that, i can wake up to thoughts like, civ pro test 28 May, CPA test, crim pro got test not?

you tell me now. how not to commit suicide?!
like as if all these will actually secure me a place in NUS law school.
oh come on, GIVE ME A BREAK!!

you long ago dont want to tell me that i dont have a future!
i wouldn't have bothered now would i?! i would have just take a broom and practice sweeping the floor then at 15 join NEA or something. who is this you, im talking about? i myself don't even know.

such unfairness seeping slowly into my life.
suffocating me, spreading its horrible black black smoke into my lungs.
i will die.

im very dramatic. if Ferhan reads this he will laugh & shake his head & snort & laugh in my face cause im worst than a hindi movie.

enough, now.