the only safe place is my mind.

the only place i can retreat & have a monologue with myself.

HAHAHAH.

you know what? im wondering, if i remind you, if my presence reminds you one way or the other of what could have been, what we could possibly have & if one way or the other, you're reminded of your past mistakes & what you have done to me why is it that you want to meet me in the first place?

why do you want to meet me when at the end of the day for the past few days all you do is keep quiet because you're sad & depressed or so you claimed? what is the bloody fucking purpose of that, Ferhan Siddiqi?!

You have mood swings like a girl!

Can i check the ratio of your fingers, please. It's scientifically proven, you know.

One moment you made a joke & laughing your lungs raw & suddenly you're as silent as a dumb bell. (what kind of analogy is this, Aidah?)

Tahukah anda bahawa saya sungguh fed-up dengan perangai yang sebegitu rupa?

Ferhan, are you going to wallow in your self-misery for very long? Because self pity is not a very good company to keep for long.

I need to fucking a get a life already!